Sleepless Nights

Pace,

By the time you're old enough to read this journey, you may have already heard the phrase "It takes a village to raise a child." But what you may not have heard yet is that it took a village to have you.

Someone recently told me that the best people in your life "fill your gaps." When you can't seem to make it from one side to the other, they jump in. This blog started as a way to update our closest friends and family during a "simple" IVF journey. However, it became a village; a village of gap-fillers. Family, friends, and strangers came together to support us in a time where our gap seemed extra big and extra scary. And because of them, we were able to cross the big, scary gap to you.

To all these gap-fillers, thank you. Thank you for calling, for texting, for hoping, for praying, for crying, for sharing your stories, for learning with us, and for rejoicing with us.  We are forever changed because of you.

Before July 28, 2015 when I heard people say things like "things can change in an instant", I would think of how many times our hearts were broken in an instant.  Now, my mind flashes to when I rocked you for the first time. Because in that instant, you became the biggest gap-filler of all. You finally filled the hole in my heart that was there always waiting for you.

Little patient soul, I have no idea what is in store for your future. Your dad and I can't WAIT to see it. And while we have lots of hopes and dreams for you, our biggest hope of all is that you'll always know just how loved you are.

Now, it's time for me to go enjoy those sleepless nights.

Love,
Mom

PS. Here's a video of your story!